RUN AROUND LA

Sudah Potong?

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 13:20:00 +0000

It seems to me there's a sense of lackadaisical air if we're talking about monopolies. Not the famous boardgame, but entities manning our broadband wavelength. [cue the P1 WIMAX ad - "potong..potong potong pooootong]..

I'm all for stable Internet lines, although a colleague told me the circumsized boradband is not that bad in Kajang. Been using Streamyx was ok for me, except for the time when the underground fibre optic cable snapped a few years ago. As such, when i encounter 'no connection' i just restart modem and router everything's fine.

Ish, donno why but whenever i can't get no connection aa..I always feel i'm cut off from the world. That's how weird it is.

Back to the 1st paragraph. I registered for Streamyx account. 19th November. Ding dong ding dong plus some misunderstanding PLUS technician's refusal to work during weekends i finally get my Streamyx installed. Phew [heh, i sighed just now tau]. Finally gue dapat memblogging comfortably, upload pictures,et cetera.

Oh syahdunya..

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:42:00 +0000

streamyx - already got the phone line installed, prolly after raya haji.

pictures - found a cool uber shop where they specialise in frames, reprint pictures. When Baba n Mak went toParis i requested them to bring back a few paintings, pictures if thepaintings are expensive. Voila, the pictures came out good and looks exclusive..Wait till i upload the pics.

We thought of changing the living room curtain to dark color. Maroon maybe?

Nak pergi KK la, bring Mek n Icha - i did promise Mek i'd bring her to KK as it is fantastic!

Light up, light up...

Stop and Stare

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 05:05:00 +0000

Hey! It's already Monday and the rainy season has arrived i think. Still can remember having a deliciously hot cup of Nescafe O and sitting beside the window watching air hujan.

Come to think of it, there was one time where there was a landslide near Zaiton Sameon's house [our house in Melawati is near Zaiton Sameon's house] and i complained to Baba that i cannot see Zaiton's house!! Loved her song, "Sepanjang perjalanan ini, lembah dan lurah kulewati, ketenangan yang kucari, belum ku temui".

Songs those days are written much simpler..

We had a short getaway to Batu Pahat, Johor to see Atin. I loved it, Batu Pahat Summit was mindblowing!

Dahlan Zainudin

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 06:35:00 +0000

Yesterday i cooked pasta with cheese for dinner. Once in a while it's okay to cook dinner for your family and i must say it was tasty, not oversalty but the pasta spiralle [spiral?] was a bit overcooked.

Icha, as you know if you haven't, doesnt want to be left alone in front of the tv. We guessed if she got a lil sister or brother she would take really good care of them. Kerja dia nak ada teman jer, or nak berkawan..

Back to the pasta, i never tried making my own sauce..I donno why, been having dangdut songs in my head lately..

When can we buy a house? Some financial commitments are holding us back..I gotta catch this opportunity as BLR has gone down.

Aqueous Transmission

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 09:10:00 +0000

I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holds long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow

Further down the river

Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named emotion
Will I make it back to shore
Or drift into the unknown

Further down the river

I'm building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through
Maybe we could meet again further down the river

And share what we both discovered...Then revel in the view

Selamat Hari Raya

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 00:47:00 +0000

baru dapat tau guna preposition dengan cara yang betul. [i'm IN the States, i'm AT Melawati]. Thanks to Tok Ddy and Ataen. See, you'll never stop learning.

balik jam kat Raub, pulang best.

Icha very goody goody girl, stop just for diaper change and stretch legs

i broke down uncontrollably time minta maaf dgn my parents. I mean 'Sembilu style' break down. Donno, i felt i had to let it all out. Never said i love you to Baba before. I really meant it actually.

Next year will be buying raya clothes in May. Tak kira, nak jugak.

Me osso nangis masa salam dgn Mek, tak macho kan? tapi sayu sangat pasal last year beraya kat station and we felt a lot is missing that time.

between a rock and a hard place, anyone?

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 05:49:00 +0000

That's it, when Alfie [the last king of ampang ] told me he left a comment in one of the entries, that's when i really have to update..

Mek said, "Ni pasal Facebook la ni, kalau tak pantang ada cerita je mesti update blog". I guess it's true.Facebook lets you update there and then, the normal 120+ aksaras of alphabets just like SMS. With blog, you have to think like an author. Or maybe not.

But then again, when Alfie said he left a comment, that's one of the nicest compliments you could get.

Last night we were supposed to sahur at a hotel in Jln Sultan Ismail. I heard about the rate which is quite surprisingly cheap and why not? Hey ho let's go!!! Spurs vs Man U also around that time..Mr Organiser had invited a few friends from there, a few from here.. It's sad when you think about it. We're all grown ups, but we're still thinking in batches/clans/gang etc. I'm ok with that, as long as i can dig my fingers in those lovely steamboat!

But no, it wasn't meant to be. I cannot have lazat buffet for sahur. God has other plans for me. And that would be no buffet for sahur last night. The gang i told you before, they decided that they wanna eat somewhere else and just made the decision to blah.

So i'm stuck in this situation where all of them are my friends or acquaintances [although some of them rich ppl makes me segan silu to mingle with them] but we are to eat separately. Some wants to go to the famous kampung in KL, like me i never had the chance to sahur buffet i wanna sahur buffet lah.. And plus, i never been to the Cafe near the hotel in my life, and they said the band is gempaks. Yes, they really made some of my wishes come true. You know = Paint It Black, Enter Sandman, Smells Like Teen Spirit [dude, it's 'mulatto' before 'albino', not the other way around], some Muse numbers, and Coldplay.

See eventhough i dont really fancy Coldplay, their songs really gempaks when played live. They played Viva la Vida, but i swear if they played 'Fix You' i will break down in tears.

Back to sahur. The defectors left and Mr Organiser were left reeling of his efforts to organise the sahur, i think it's quite embarassing cos our table is in front of a biiiig LCD tv. Showing Spurs vs Man U. [what a game!!]. After the game we decided (or was it me kempunan?) to go to Pelita Nasi Kandar as i felt detached already with kari. Need to refresh my tastebuds.

*grinning* so everyone sat down to 'down' nasi kandar. And borak just like old days but i felt guilty la pulak borak lama2, i seemed to miss my two lovely ladies at home.

Lord of The Flies

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 06:54:00 +0000

I realised, that i have other priorities and no time to blog.
Having a kid can take up your time a lot. Donno if bringing a maid can improve? I dun think so.
Went to see Man U train, Berbatov IS really lazy - when everyone do pumping, he just meniarap macam baby.
Had a BBQ jamuan with friends, coincidentally my neighbourhood siap pasang canopy and bakar SEEKOR kambing at the same night.
in my hands, a Dostoyevsky book called Crime and Punishment - halfway to go.
Got back from a teambuilding event @ Sg Klah resort & hotsprings - check out http://www.plantationresorts.com.my/
Alonso and Mascherano want out from Liverpool!!
No one wants to come to Man U!!
Jack Wilshere (Arsenal youngster) is damn goood!!! Saw him play against Atletico and he's a brilliant ballplayer. Watch him next season.
bila la my new toy akan sampai...
@ Sg Klah hotsprings, all villas have their own jacuzzi. Pergh, we were like Muslim drug lords!! with curut and all..
last night BBQ @ Uncle Man's house..Love the air asam!!
Need to focus on stocktake next week. Erk!!!!
read that Astro wants to increase fees for sports channel. Eff you, golf pun dah ada channel sendirik no need to bore us with men with small balls [yes, pun unintended].
why la i have problem with Vista. If i save an Excel file in XP powered PC using thumbdrive, then i cucuk thumbdrive in Vista , i tend to get error messages. Eventhough i saved the file in Excel 2003 etc.
why is it that people in my neighbourhood (read: neighbours bodo) still bakar daun2 hasil ladang mereka yang tak seberapa tu? Pagi2 Sunday bukak pintu jer, bau asap.
Gugu Gaga Erra @ Astro Ria indicates that i've been watching to much tv
Which reminds me that i missed this week's Melodi.. :p
The demonstrations @ KL made me think = is this the example they wanna show to our kids? That in order to nego with authorities you need to display aggression?
Ok dah, kerja tak start2 lagi..

Icha Shaolin Soccer - After and Before

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 16:54:00 +0000

Alhamdulillah, our long awaited hajat has finally been settled. Actually there were 3, buy pizza for NICU staffs, cukur rambut, and jamu makan kawan2..Rambut dah settle, BBQ should be next week Insya Allah and pizza bila dapat gaji nanti huhu..

Ustaz Hisham (a cousin of a colleague) was very nice, spoke to Icha while shaving her head..Basically Icha was uncomfortable being held by a stranger but Papa is here to save the day!!!

Later that night Icha showed us her vocal ability..Geletek her and she squeals like never before. And the strange thing was, previously she used to have a look at our wall clock and then smiled as though 'kena acah', today no more..Prolly her 'friend' already left the house to play with other babies yang belum cukur rambut lagi. Wallahualam.

I thank God for Icha has become a very very very very good girl. Nowadays, she minum susu around 10:30pm and then kitorang sembang mambang until dia ngantuk which is quite brief. Laer on she'll wake us up around 6am and sembang2 lagi..

Betul la my colleague Firdaus used to say, "Ko kalau ada anak, segala *%$@ kat ofis akan hilang bila ko tengok anak ko". Nicely said.

Water supply in toilets are not meant for jual air kelapa and whatnots!

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 08:26:00 +0000

Hi there, been busy with juggling anak and work and family.

This video is dedicated to Atok, because he's been missing to see Aesha Amani his grandchild. Enjoy!

Erk

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 14:12:00 +0000

Erk..While i was holding Icha,with only a towel covering my willie..Baba said..

Baba :"What's that?" [while pointing out to my pinggang's stretch marks]
Me :"Stretch mark Ba".
Baba :"Maksudnya after you shed some weight, the lemak stays as stretch marks?"

Icha menangis lagik..

Me:"I suppose so la"...

*What was that all about?*

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 17 Jun 2009 07:22:00 +0000

The Riddle (You and I)

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 17 Jun 2009 01:34:00 +0000

Icha's 1st outing

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 06:38:00 +0000

Now everyone sing "We are farmileee!!!!". I dunno, after sending Atin to Puduraya yesterday i can sense that Mek is somehow boring duduk rumah.

So i propose we go out. Muka Mek berseri2 weh..Icha pun sengih2 ala ala setuju..

Tesco = Apa yang ada?
Jusco = Tgk wayang? Ada berani?
Alamanda = Ramai benor orang..

Maka dengan sebulat suaranya kami bersetuju untuk ke Jusco Cheras Selatan [nama glamer untuk Balakong ok]. Hajatnya nak membeli thermos and mittens + booties Icha yang boleh fit, bukan longgar as the present ones selalu tercabut. Oh yeah, i wanna buy my copy of FourFourTwo magazine + Reader's Digest. Thinking of subscribing Reader's Digest and FFT, tapi baik pasang Streamyx. Icha's Atok wanna see her everyday he asks Papa to install Skype so he can tunjuk muka ke Icha...huhu..

So back to Jusco. We arrive there, thousands of cars parked at the open parking..Sheesh, tapi gue mengactivatekan 'The Secret' punya pengajaran iaitu kita imagine yang kita akan dapat parking. Alas, depan tu jer...

Matahari tersangatlah teriks, siap ada perbalahan sebentar dgn Mek sebab tak bawak cover stroller. Takpe, Papa gave her some loving so Ummi's ok. Icha good girl time sampai. Tidor je..Tapi ya rabbi punya la sejuk Jusco..So far so good, Icha good girl tido jer..

Alih2 masa kat Baby's Dept Icha transformed jadi 'Jeritan Batinku'. Pergh..Mek was inside the baby changing room, and no men is allowed!! Gue gigit jari dah yennadey!!! Sampai siap ada 2 little chinese girls duduk sebelah Icha menyaksikan Icha scream her lungs out..Apparently she gave out a BIIIG BOMBBBBB!!!!! Dah la terbawak spare baju jenis jumper punya, nak kena 2 org just to masukkan thru the head..Agony siot.

Then we shopping baju Ummi, biasalah org dah terperok kat umah kat 2 months sure mereng nya..Amik kau, 4 pasang baju dia beli. Lepas geram, Papa dah burned several holes in pocket so to speak.

Dinner at Pizza Hut, nasib baik Icha managed to become good girl sepanjang time makan tu..There was an older kid nangis tak henti2, sampai suma orang paling ke arah budak tu..Everytime Icha macam nak terjaga je both of us cringe sambil letak jari kat bibir syyy...

Sampai umah je, Icha baru sedar..Alhamdulillah, everyone had a good time. I felt refreshed cos Papa always go to office on Sundays, save some time to tengok bola only..Nanti gue bubuh gambar 'evidence' Icha pergi jalan2 woohooo!!!!

Pictures of you..

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Sat, 23 May 2009 14:53:00 +0000

Saje letak kat sini so Atuk and aunties can view pics of Icha. During daytime she can be adorable, tapi mlm2tukar jadi T Rex. I really really have to buy the breast pump, electric punya. Tomorrow's our wedding anniversary, so i guess i'm gonna buy tomorrow la.

what happened so far..

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 20 May 2009 07:48:00 +0000

Lemme see..

It was Angah's birthday..Had a surprise although the surprise seemed common..'Forced' Angah to cook pasta. [eh helo, sauce guna Prego is sooo dinosaur ok?]. Neway, the cake was delicious..

Meeting yesterday, and off to bowling. We won, but it seems that geng bapak budak ni stamina hanya one game jer. Tetiba sorang tanya balik, "Kalau 'game' tu, korang tahan satu round je ke?". Ho boy, one of those middle age lucah jokes.

Icha good girl - Most of the time she's a good girl..Last night was hell for me. She screamed like we have no neighbour at all. My concern is 1) whether she's sick but the way she looked more like scared of something. 2) her voice might breach the decibles allowed for normal sleep, takmo jiran terganggu je la.

And lastly, kan Mek is working with me aight? Currently i get things done alone, plus assisted by several staffs. Pelan2 i discovered i'm actually a productive person, and can get things done walaupun banyak kerja. I know i'm efficient, and i can lead this team well. Sometimes you yourself have to give a pat on your back. No, make it two pats.

23 days already

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 13 May 2009 13:31:00 +0000

Letih. Tu je nak cakap.

Semalam Icha nangis, takleh tido sampai aku dikejutkan untuk membeli susu formula.

Erk? I thought we agreed to give Ummi's delicious milk? Takpe, maka dengan mengantuknya aku pergi 7-11 untuk mencari susu formula. Dalam hati, "Ada ke jual kat 7 E?". At 3am.

Ya..ada..Lactogen lagik.

Dengan seronot nya saya pulang membawa Lactogen itu. While making a mental note to buy that breast pump.

Tapi, actually banyak gak time Icha jadi budak baik..Tido jer dari pukul 11pm to 5am. Senang hati. Nenek took over penjagaan dari Mak Wan..

So kita nak try tgk malam ni plaks.Icha nangis macamana pun Papa ok jer..You get to practise your lungs, dahla Papa trauma pasal Icha kuar mula2 dulu Icha tak nangis langsung. Senyap - macam perpustakaan

Btw,Icha says hi to everyone!!!!

Aesha at home!!!

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Tue, 05 May 2009 02:41:00 +0000

Alhamdulillah, she was discharged last week. I think it's normal for a newborn to be crying all the time, only to be calmed by Ummi's milk.

Ho yeah, she cries all right. Tapi macam kesian bila dia nangis pasal nangis macam meminta belas kasihan. Now that's the evolution process whereby babies are made to look vulnerable, fragile etc so the parents akan menjaganya, dukung etc. Obviously, sapa nak dukung kalau the offspring rupa macam adult sendirik?

The good thing is, Icha tidur around 12am to 5am daily. Mek can catch some sleep la.

Family, relatives and friends dropped by to meet Icha. My aunty + uncles, nenek Icha, Atuk Icha, Tank n Anne, Ali and Mat Ki (hangpa bila lagi?), Azman, and some of Mek's colleague tempat kerja lama.

Serious, membeli barangan baby tersangatlah confusing. You have this and that brand la, Drypers, Huggies, PetPet, MamyPOKO, Tesco. I kinda loike Tesco nappies cos it's damn cheap2.

Anak aku ni macam rawkstar la, sikit2 nak dukung. Kena penuhi permintaan heheh. Paham la pasal dah dekat 10 days dalam NICU, surrounded by sinister machine sounds and nurses yang pakai baju kaler biru.

Dah hari keberapa kat NICU ye?

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 15:28:00 +0000

Aku pun tak sure dah..Let's see..1st day is 20th..sekarang ni dah 28th..So plus minus 28 days? Eh, 8 days dah melepak kat Hospital Serdang tak reti2 nak balik hehehhe..

Ok, Aesha Amani (memang apple of my eye - aku dah menjadi parent yang geli geleman syok citer pasal anak dia dah ni wei) getting better. How? Aunty Anne, Uncle Tank, Aunty Bee, Aunty Yan, and Uncle Meg datang tgk dia hari tu...So she felt seronok pasal ramai yang datang nak nengok dia.

No more oxygen tube, no more Dextrose solutions, tiada lagi wayar di perut...There was one time nurse cuba masukkan tubing tu sampai ke perut, Ya Allah Icha macam gag seketika sambil limbs dia kejung kejap. I had to block Mek's view masa tu.

Nowadays, Icha dah start minum susu mak nyer..Amboi lahap bebenor!! Pantang kalau [adakah aku menjadi poyo kerana seronok bercerita pasal anak aku? Harapnyer tidak, pasal Icha had to fight for her life last time and she's recovering well so i'm proud of her] lepas breastfeed, mesti tak suka kalau letak kat dalam cot.

Once in a while she melts our heart by smiling at us. Or maybe not at us, just smiling. Ish, itu aaa i tell you one of the most priceless thingy that could happen. Apart from Man U coming back from 2 goals down and scoring 5 bijiks!!! I just had to reply Najeeb's smiley icon dengan berkata, "Ni aku balas balik kenyeh (sengih) hang noh? Jangan mara..".

Bila Icha menangis, aku plak yang jadi segan. Segan kat orang lain pasal bising. Takpela nak, exercise la paru2 tu to the max.

Dr said she still has 3 days to complete her antibiotics. Tadi Aunty Kharina and Uncle Anwar datang nak nengok. Icha says 'nice to meet you, jumpa lagi lepas dah balik rumah'. Oh yeah, Kharina is 35 weeks oredi, so Laporpo offsprings akan berada di darjah/tingkatan yang sama woohooo!!! Anwar plan nak gi Pulau Perhentian bila anak2 dah setahun lebih.

Dah..nak sambung kerja. Mak Ngah (Angah) sorang je yang tak tengok Icha lagi. Sedih tau!

NICU 4th Day

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 01:53:00 +0000

I can understand why most parents would gush about their child.

Icha cried for the first time. First time we hear her cry. Mek menangis sedih/gumbira.
No more sedatives, more responsive.
Limbs a bit cold to touch. Fever
Oxygen tube removed!!!!!
The tube inside her belly button is to administer antibiotics.
Icha was wearing snowcap yang besau.
Dr wants her to practice breathing thru the nose, so there was a tube attached to her nose.
We spoke to her, "Aesha Amani...this is Papa and Ummi". And she responded by moving her limbs. And she put up an effort to open her eyes!!!! Skit lagi Icha.!
Lumbar Puncture done yesterday, will know of the results today prolly. Jgn la meningitis.

NICU 3rd Day

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 04:19:00 +0000

Dr Rohaizah mentioned we need to pump milk because Icha already been given formula milk. Yesterday was a happy paternal thingy for me. They lowered the amount of sedative [my baby a druggie?] and she responded somehow. When i touched her limbs, she moved whether it's menggeliat or such.

Neways, Dr said her dependency on the ventilator is less. Which means Icha's using her lungs more with minimal help from the oxygen machine. I asked Dr, "Berapa percent? 50%?" . Dr said, "Nonononono, more. Dia dah hampir ok".

Now i sometimes have this tendency to believe the phrase "If you ask me stupid questions, you shall receive stupid answers" by asking Dr Rohaizah if Icha will turn vegetable or brain dead after she recovers. Padan muka kena marah dgn Dr Rohaizah. She repeatedly said positive progress. Abih, masa 1st day nak kena bagi plasma transfusion, depa call mintak sign consent form. Aku terus ingat yang bukan2 la. Lain la kalau aku ada MD from Bangalore ka, Royal College of Surgeons ka. Takpe, whatever it takes for Icha to recover.

So Dr mintak i sign consent form to proceed with Lumbar Puncture (LP). Icha demam, and they're worried if she gets an infection in her brain. Meningitis kot? Gotta research more. LP ialah prosedur menebuk sedikit tulang belakang (bahagian lumbar) untuk mengambil sampel cecair spina. Ini adalah untuk mengenalpasti samada otak Aesha Amani bt Mohd Fadzli bakal dijangkiti meningitis. Petang skit nak pergi tengok la progress dia. Oh yeah, dia pun kena jaundice kasi sunbathing under UV ray skit.

Tapi best la bila Icha response, i spoke to her all the time. Sembang2 macam she's normal. Rindu la, this morning ada baby talk show so me and Mek was like, "ala comel nye...budak tu menguap....and what's our baby doing in NICU la plaks?"

2nd Day in NICU

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 02:31:00 +0000

So Maria was allowed to be discharged. Paediatrician's free around 9am and 3pm so parents can seek advice, progress of babies, skin-to-skin contact sessions with anak.

Went to see Icha, she's still sedated so not much movement from her. Her head is tilt left to right from time to time to avoid muscle stiffness.

Then i realised that Icha is not fully sedated. How? Mek tickeld her ear and Icha squirmed her eyes. Much to our relief. i tried to tickle her feet and Icha geli. Heheheheh, Ya Allah..i would trade all that i have just to see her crying/menjerit nak susu. Currently she's still being fed with Dextrose solutions.

Unfortunately, we cant take pics. I can understand relative's keinginan nak tengok dia. Apatah lagi us parents. Ummi (Mek) is strong, i know. That one i tabik her la. i broke down macam gila meroyan masa delivery, because Icha didn't cry. Turned blue somemore.

Yesterday Najeeb came to visit, my Boss and a few colleagues. Thank you so much. Nanti Icha sihat she'll come to see you.

Welcome to the world, Aesha Amani

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 12:45:00 +0000

Heaven - Live

You don't need no friends
get back your faith again
you have the power to believe
another dissident,take back your evidence
it has no power to deceive
I'll believe it when I see it, for myself

I don't need no one
to tell me about heaven
I look at my daughter, and I believe.
I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sunset and I perceive

I sit with them all night
everything they say is right
but in the morning they were wrong
I'll be right by your side
come hell or water high
down any road you choose to roam
I'll believe it when I see it for myself

I don't need no one to tell me about heaven
I look at my daughter, and I believe.
I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sunset and I perceive, yeah

darling, I believe, Oh Lord
sometimes it's hard to breathe, Lord
at the bottom of the sea, yeah yeah

I don't need no one to tell me about heaven
I look at my daughter, and I believe.
I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sunset and I perceive, yeah

Formula Uno

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 10:57:00 +0000

Neways guys, thank you so so much for the advice.

Aku dah buang. Tapi masa nak panggil dia masuk ofis, he was preparing food for his shift. I couldnt bare, sembang pasal kerja sket.

So i asked a staff to call him for me. Masa tgk kasut dia, aku nak sebak. He was wearing kasut canvas ala2 Converse gitu. Which i pernah pakai masa dulu2.

After explaining, Isa did request for demotion to pump attendant. But no, "you can go home now".

When he left the office, budak lain tanya nak gi mana. He just walked out, kepala tunduk . Mek cried. Nangis ala2 sedih. Aku pun sedih. Tapi kontrol macho depan wife punya pasal, tak terkeluar air mata.

Sedih pasal he's a nice guy. But decision has been made. I would like to move forward from now on. Lepas buang dia, kitorang tengok Confessions of a Shopaholic.

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Now this movie struck me deep. I mean Mariana Trench deep. The way she was humiliated in front of TV audiences made me cringe. I know how Borat's wife feels. Tapi alhamdulillah, dah ok. Takde interest2 lagi. I've also dah gunting my credit cards long time ago woohoo..CASH IS KING. Just like Singh is King!.

BTW, i really hope i can watch jamiroquai tomorrow after the race. BrawnGP rawks!!!!

A question for you

deft.ones.resources@gmail.com (Fadzli) — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 09:32:00 +0000

See i have a staff named Isa. Some people perceive him as a mentally challenged person. He is like this person consumed in his own thoughts. Pendek kata, everyone always has something to say to him everytime he makes a mistake. Very polite person nonetheless , sometimes veering towards awkward towards us.

He's been with me 3 months already. His mother worked @ DBP, seemed like an educated woman. You know, speak English fluently and all that. There was one time his mom called me, and explained what happened to him in his early days. He had cleft palate, but it was remedied through cosmetic surgery. Common ailments among selected newborn. The mom also mentioned that he can't control his bladder during primary years, and that makes him a shy person. Later, during secondary school he got bullied by schoolmates and because of that he becomes what he is today.

Isa always makes mistakes, be it cash related or operation wise. And everytime he makes one, we [especially me] would roll our eyes. Jadi geram, why i recruited him in the first place? He doesn't even smile to customers, let alone greet them. If i reexplain to him some procedures, he would nod like he understands it. And then [once in a blue moon doesn't apply to Isa] he would continue making those mistakes.

I pity him. I think that's why i accepted him, thinking and hoping that he can be an efficient member of our organisation. Entah, i think i'm tired of sighing when it comes to Isa. Last month, his mom gave us some macaroni goreng and cakes. Sedap la jugak.

Jgn silap faham, last time @ Shah Alam i had kept troublesome staff due to limited supply of candidates. Susah nak cari orang kat situ. Here in Kajang, ramai walk in applicants . Alhamdulillah and i'm thankful for that.

So here's a question to you guys, i'm thinking of letting him go. There's this mistake that i can consider quite serious, he committed on the 21st March. I can just use that excuse to fire him. Bukan la kesalahan besar sangat, tapi i've had it with his clumsiness, inefficiency, or just his plain expressionless face when he says, "Minta maaf, saya janji takkan buat lagi" or "Minta maaf, salah saya tu". Camne? Hope you guys can help.